Journal Entry Vol.2 #21
Wednesday, July 20th, 2016 12:41pm
University of Montana Soccer Field, Missoula, MT
When I really start over and hand everything over to God or whatever it is, it is so scary and my immediate reaction is to control the situation. I know, always, what the right answer is, because I’ve tapped into my inner compass. It’s boils down to wanting to save my ass and face at the same time. I can’t. I have to pick one. No matter what it is, it’s scary. The big things always are and even the small stuff.
It’s about being honest with myself and stepping outside of my comfort zone. I like to keep with things that are comfortable and easy. Eventually, after holding on for dear life, I let go, and I find the courage to take one small step, then the rest follow. When that happens it feels good, and I get motivated to really let go. All of this happens when I listen to my gut. It’s always the right voice. Always. These steps always lead to pure bliss, moments of serenity and complete happiness and excitement for the future.
After all is said and done, this cycle repeats over and over again. That is life.